I Stand Amazed

Abstract

Intro -- I Stand Amazed… -- About the Author -- About the Book -- Dedication -- Copyright Information -- Acknowledgement -- Hello World -- The Worst News -- The Story so Far… -- Dark Days Despite the Sun -- The Chemotherapy Begins -- What's Going On? -- Violet Beauregard Eat Your Heart Out -- X-Tra, X-Tra, the X-Ray Results Are In -- Just Call Me Delia Smith -- 10 July -- Looking Swell -- 12 July 2013 -- Message from Mum -- Peaks and Troughs -- 13 July -- A (Temporary) Change of Tone -- 15 July -- A Wig and a Prayer -- BBQs and Besties -- 19 July -- Reception Called, They Want to Upgrade You -- You Don't Know -- You're Beautiful -- 22 July -- Bald and Beautiful -- Is It Just Me or Is Everything…? -- Pretending Is Hard -- A Possible Turn-Up for -- the Books -- Life Is a Rollercoaster, Just Gotta Ride It -- She's Home -- No Ifs, Buts or Maybes -- Without Friends We Are Nothing -- News in Brief -- Pondering -- Here We Go Again -- Disappointment Came a Calling -- Rallying the Troops -- Sorry Isn't the Hardest Word -- Harder by the Hour -- Emotionally Wrung Out -- Positive Signs -- Register Now -- Happy Birthday to You! -- What a Difference a Day Makes -- Short and Sweet -- Make Time -- Baby Steps -- Sobering News -- 21 October -- One More Step -- No-Vember Fundraising -- It Wasn't a Huge Surprise -- Ohhhh Matron -- What I Think -- You Already Know -- There Is a Glimmer -- And so It Begins -- The End of the Road -- Palliative Care so Far -- Open Letter to Mum -- Good Night -- Funeral -- Stumbling Through -- Vacant -- There's a Tree in My -- Living Room -- Eulogy -- Step by Little Step -- Sorting Through -- I Stand Amazed… -- A Short Story -- Post Script -- One Year Later -- Here's What I Know -- 1 December 2014.